I'm thinking about my future career. If i dont become a journalist i either want to be a writer or an agony aunt. I've yet to decide

So i've signed myself up as a Mind campaginer. Mind is a charity to help those with mental help issues. I thought i would give those in need some help as mental health is so minsunderstood. I would love to help those in need.

Louise's Story.
So i'm very close to my sister. She's 18 and i love her with all my heart. Her main story began at the age of 14. We lost our grandpa and it destroyed her. She wrote poems about him and will always remember his last words to her "Louise, you are like a blooming red rose as you've grown. Always remember that when i die i will always be looking down on you and i will always be proud". She started self harming and skipping school. She had a social worker at school and that led her into care at the age of 16. She went off the rails. Began smoking and continued skipping school. She eventually expressed her sexuality as a bisexual. My dad is shall we say dislikes the idea so it was very hard for her to do that.
So a year past and she eventually came home in October. It was pretty hard on all of us when she left. But it was harder on me. I did stupid things. I felt alone and lost without her but at least i knew she was safe. And now. We're inseperable. We go out all the time along with her boyfriend, Chris. He's great and they're so happy together.
Just thought i'd share this story :)

So my name is Elaine or Lainii as my friends call me. I'm 16 and live in the UK. I've always wondered about what has happened to my life. You know the good times, the memories and the bad times and their problems. One of my many ways of coping is music, I love listening to music. From All Time Low to Thirty Seconds To Mars, to Jimmy Hendrix and the Sex Pistols. Just sitting hour after hour listening. I've changed dramatically over the years. I used to play with Barbies and Bratz and listen to pop music. But now I read comic books, smoke and play video games most of the time. I was never allowed to dye my hair. I'm originally blonde but I'm now a brunette and I'm happy with it. I use to be heavily stereotyped as a 'goth' or an 'emo'. I was never really those things.
 I've had many problems. Bullying, self harm and depression. I still get depressed now and again and it leaves me with self loathing and repentance. I always get like this but I know what to do. You don't regret anything you do. Ever. Because in the end it creates who you are. I'm much happier now because I lose myself in my own world. Like I have a major obsession with the BBC Sherlock series, Disney, Marvel, DC Comics, Batman, Supernatural, Harry Potter, clothes, Jared Leto, Shannon Leto, Thirty Seconds To Mars, Punk culture, True Blood , video games etc. The list is endless . Just thinking about those things puts a smile on my face.
But the day that changed me was the loss of my grandad. I never got to know him very well. My dad tells me all the time "Your grandad will be so proud of you. He would have loved you." And I never forgot that. It crushed me when I found out. I remember asking my dad if he was going to be an orphanage instead of an orphan which made him laugh a little. It changed me physically and mentally. I felt lost. It hit my dad extremely hard and we're extremely close. Which led me going off the rails a couple of years later. I skipped school most of the time and began to smoke. Smoking helps me calm down and takes the edge off every single thing that's happened . I finished school but that was the start of the trouble. Police, questions, losing friends to be with 'boyfriends' , people getting involved when they have no fucking right to. But the good thing thats came out of all this trouble is my best friend - Sophie or as i call her Soph. Shes great. She's everything i could ask for in a best friend. She's trusting, caring, supportive, funny, loving and i wouldn't know what to do without her. A true friend.But remember this ladies and gentlemen....Out there in this world.... there are people who have bigger problems. Abuse. Violence. Crime. Hate crimes. Suicidal. Mental health etc. It just makes you think well how i think how lucky you really are.... The whole point of this website is for me to be your shoulder to cry on. Your friend. A mentor. But it will always be private. I respect privacy. Just remember that life is just too short and be perspective.... Stay strong guys xx <3

Bit of a tiresome week. My anemia had been pretty bad but i've kept myself busy. I found some really cute shops on my outings in Newcastle. Mainly some gothic and a few vintage stores. One store i fell in love with was Katman2. It was an amazing store which sold gothic clothing like corsets, skirts, hoodies, accessories etc. But what i was most drawn to was insence sticks. They have an amazing variety. As an impulse buyer i had to get some and i love the smell of vanilla. But if you cant get to Newcastle i recommend an app called Wish or Wanelo. They're both free and you can find some amazing items. I'm addicted to both of them.